Why do we try so hard to hide it? Why do I try so hard to hide it?
Christianity is a funny thing. It’s a religion, but it’s not. It’s the most freeing thing a person can experience, yet so many people fall into a routine of dos and don’ts. It’s something that when pondered is such an amazing concept – something that should blow my mind. And yet, I still find myself getting stuck in life’s assembly line being pressed down and told who to be.
Let’s just cut to the chase: I have not read my Bible on a consistent basis in months. I’m not in any way proud or even happy to admit that. I’m rather ashamed, but I think it’s necessary to share.
Here is where I get stuck – why do I try so hard to hide my failing relationship with the Creator of the universe?
The only one who is being affected by my unfaithfulness is the one who already knows it. So why bother putting up a front to everyone else?
I guess it is because I want to look good.
Pride is one of my biggest downfalls, and I don’t think I’m alone in saying that. Unfortunately, most people won’t admit it’s a problem for them because well, that’s how pride works. It will not allow itself to be shown as pride or admitted as a fault.
We go to church, shake hands with five people, listen to the pastor’s message and talk with one another after the service. Everything looks great from the outside. No one is willing to admit the dry and cracked soul within them, though. The same goes with social media. We put up our best front so people think we are better than we actually are.
But the sad thing is if we don’t start admitting our pride, I’m scared the Church will end up a social club that meets on Sundays. We won’t challenge each other. We won’t help each other, and that’s what the body of Christ is for – to support one another. If we’re not transparent then that won’t happen.
So here I stand exposed. I’m an unfaithful faker some days. I can talk the talk, but I am not actively pursuing God like I used to or ought to. And yet, here I stand exposed and ready to heal. I’m sick of pride getting in the way.
Maybe you haven’t been pursuing God like you ought to. You haven’t picked up your Bible in months, you don’t pray and you dread going to church. I’m here to say, “I get you.” I understand you, and I’m here right next to you ready to push through this with you. Let’s be honest with one another so we can help each other grow closer to the God who loves us and desires a relationship with us. It’s time we be real and put down our masks.